4.6 Blue Boy

ajo ’pi sann avyayātmā
bhūtānām īśvaro ’pi san
prakṛtiṁ svām adhiṣṭhāya
sambhavāmy ātma-māyayā

Although I am unborn and My transcendental body never deteriorates, and although I am the Lord of all living entities, I still appear in every millennium in My original transcendental form. – The Bhagavad Gita, verse 4.6

My childhood was nurtured by simplicity and innocence—innocence devoid of knowledge, and of ignorance, too. Why there are no Cola taps? I would often ask. I liked to hear mystical stories—stories that were real, not myths. The word “mythology” entered my life only in my twenties. And, in twenties, questioning, doubt, and rebuke of religion, too, barged into my life. I won’t have been older than 7 years when I heard for the first time that Radha Krishna and the Gopis could still be seen in Vrindavana. They dance there at night, I was told. I believed it. I wanted to see them, too. I asked if I could go to Vridnavan and stay awake at night to catch them in my vision; to see that with my eyes which I heard only through my ears. The bomb dropped. “Those who manage to see them become blind.” I was told. Why? I asked. Because Krishna doesn’t let them see this world again. Losing my eyesight wasn’t something I was ready for. This tough bargain dampened my spirit. Within a few days, my little desire found a back seat; it could no longer be seen. I became blind to it.

The grown up years brought questions, doubts, and disbelief. Prayers were not answered. Some man-made ideas exploited my plight and slapped me with agnosticism, and even atheism. But, Krishna, who lives in our hearts as Krisdakshayi Vishnu, conspired to bring me on the road that leads to Him—the road that I’m walking on now, albeit slowly. This journey is returning me to innocence–innocence purified by the transcendental knowledge, and purified of ignorance and doubt. It’s happening; moment-by-moment.

When Krishna and Srila Prabhupada divinely conspired to end my wandering, Krishna, as Paramatma, guided me to read The Bhagavad Gita As It Is. The commentator, I found, quoted a verse from Sri Brahma Samhita in his commentaries. I fell in love with this verse as soon as I read it. So, Krishna IS supreme God, wow!!!, I said jubilantly. In the solitude of my room, this verse made me the happiest person. My love for it grew each time I spotted it in the commentaries. To share my joy with others, I posted this verse on my Facebook page. Little did I know that this verse was bringing me to the edge of the cliff. It was bringing me closer to the end of my shallow life.  This verse became one of the instruments that made me resume my eternal journey in this life.

It’s the first verse of the fifth chapter of Sri Brahma Samhita. The commentator, Srila Bhaktisidhant Saraswati Maharaja, who is Srila Prabhupada’s guru, says, “This booklet is only the fifth chapter of the Hymns of Brahmā which were recorded in a hundred chapters. The Supreme Lord Śrī Caitanya picked up this chapter from the temple of Ādi-keśava at Tiruvattar, a village lying under the government of Travancore, for the assurance of all God-loving, and especially Kṛṣṇa-loving, people in this conditioned jurisdiction. This booklet can easily be compared with another book which passes by the name of Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam.”

Stop here for a moment. With an intention to exhale all the conditioning that you may have had about Krishna, breathe out. With an opened heart and loveful eyes, read the verse that filled each atom of my being with an incomparable joy:

īśvaraḥ paramaḥ kṛṣṇaḥ
anādir ādir govindaḥ

Kṛṣṇa who is known as Govinda is the Supreme Godhead. He has an eternal blissful spiritual body. He is the origin of all. He has no other origin and He is the prime cause of all causes.

On the battleground of Mahabharata, Krishna was 90 years+, but He looked 24. In Goloka Vrindavana—the highest planet beyond which even void can’t exist— Krishna, Shrila Prabhupada mentions in the purport of Srimad Bhagavatam 2.7.32—never grows beyond 16 (15 years, 9 months 7.5 days).

In this verse of the Bhagavad Gita, Krishna says, His body never deteriorates. His body is transcendental, that is, it’s beyond the modes of nature—nature which is His external energy, or Bahiranga Sakti. The five elements that give us temporary form can never smear His transcendental body. He descends into this world for the pleasure of His devotees, and to please them, our playwright, Krishna, writes a script that our minuscule brains can’t comprehend. Although He appears to be growing like a normal child, not even a giant can copy His transcendental actions. At the age of 7 He lifted Govardhan on His little finger for 7 consecutive days. At the age of 8, He performed Rasalila. On the night of Rasalila He expanded Himself into the equal number of the Gopis. By the time He reached the age of 11, He had killed many asuras. He didn’t use weapons. The Krishna book is replete with His pastimes. Srila Prabhupada loved this book like nothing of this world can explain. Once, on the day of Janamasthami, when Srila Prabhupada  happened to be in Japan with his disciples to coordinate publishing of his books, he asked everyone to read the Krishna book till midnight—till it was time of Krishna’s descent to Gokula. Srila Prabhupada would go into ecstasy when someone would read Krishna’s pastimes to him. For us they are just words, for him Krishna’s pastimes replayed, rather took place as he heard about them, rather he entered Krishna’s pastime not only through his ears, but in his original form. It’s not a visualization technique. It’s not a new age mind game thing. Bhakti scriptures explain continuity of Krishna’s pastimes through the analogy of the sun. There is always morning somewhere in the world. The sun never sets! Similarly, Krishna is performing His pastimes eternally. Sometimes He descends to our planet, and at other times he visits other galaxies, universes, planets. A devotee like Srila Prabhupada, a pure devotee, can enter Krishna’s pastimes anytime, anywhere. Krishna empowers His unalloyed devotees so much!

It’s our arrogance to think what we haven’t seen can’t happen. Or, what’s not possible for us is impossible for God. To see Krishna we need to become able enough to annihilate our arrogance. To see Krishna we need to become more humble than the blade of grass which we trample upon, ignore as if it doesn’t exist, and even insult (Don’t some of us shit on it?). To see Krishna, we need to absorb ourselves in Him.

Krishna can visit any planet, any time, in His original transcendental form. For this Blue Boy, Time remains in the present, eternally.



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